Without you.

words cannot describe the deep despicable depise i feel for this person. And all in all.... it might not be that deep since i was for a fact friends with her.  I know shes enjoying her new life. Shoot, i probably would too. She belongs there anyways.

She can get mad at me for writing this too, and yes il care. But this was just on my mind so.... i apologize.


and... there is so much more inside of me that im gonna try not to express. Honestly the only reason im super pissed is because i never get ANY thing i want. yes im whining about it. why shouldnt i?
I missed an audition thanks to my boyfriend.
Got cussed out by my dad, Thanks to my boyfriend.
Lost mom's money, thanks to my boyfriend.
Got cussed out by my 27 year old cousin, thanks to my boyfriend.


found out probably the only reason i drive 158 miles to see my boyfriend, is because i love him as my best friend.... and i little bit more than that, but basically im a loser who is loney as hell and he is the only guy wiling to kiss me.
Okay maybe hes not the ONLY guy willing to kiss me.... Its just hes the only one decent enough.

i have confidence problems, yes. im just so pissed.
i know im being pessimistic.... and im sorry. But when can LIFE give me a BREAK?!!!!


not to mention i refuse to ever go back to East Columbus High school. I am leaving columbus county forever. Im sick of it.
i want to go home.


so everybody have fun without me! i know THATS not gonna be hard. wooo.

will moving solve my life's problems? i have no idea but ive decided im gonna give it a shot.